hnf: food weaknesses

carbohydrates are my biggest enemy.


i like potatoes. i like them baked, fried and boiled. mashed, au gratin and buttered. hashbrowned. twice baked. i like them regardless of color. red, yellow, white, purple. i like potato chips. i crave the crunch, especially of a thick cut, kettle cooked chip. the salty, greasy feeling that left on my lips. mmmmm.

i like doritos. cool ranch, taco, sweet & spicy, nacho ... i like them all. i can polish off a bag in no time. and not feel a twinge of over-indulgence until i wake up the next morning feeling like i chewed a sock all night. and even then, i know it's worth it. i'm actually salivating a little bit just talking about them.

i like bread. toasted with butter & worcestershire sauce. grilled with melty cheese inside. holding together a tasty burger. smeared with garlicky butter. topped with pizza sauce, sausage and cheese. sliced thin with butter & chocolate. toasted into croutons for a salad. dipped in egg & fried for breakfast. bread is a beautiful thing.

the worst part of it is, i stink at moderation. when i have pizza one day, i want it the next day, too. and the day after that. and i can't just eat a serving of doritos; i want the whole bag. and if there's a bag of croutons in the house, most of them are eaten straight out of the bag.

and now you know why i don't keep bread in the house (unless it's in the freezer. out of sight, out of mind) and why i refuse to buy salty snacks for get togethers more than a day before i have people over. it wouldn't last until they got here!

hnf: what keeps me going

i've joined a group of health & fitness bloggers focused on making healthy choices in the way we eat and the way we move. i figure it's a good match to the biggest loser competition i joined on facebook. i mean, if i'm going to eat well and exercise, why not talk about it, right? :)

three things that keep me going when i just want to stop ...

1. Jillian: as much as i want to hate her, i also refuse to let her win. i've been doing her 30 Day Shred dvd, and it kicks my butt. but i'm not going to give up because i don't want to admit that i can't do it. sure, she's in way better shape than i am, but i'm just as tough as jillian. and i'm going to prove by continuing to do her dvd until i toss it aside because it's too easy. who's the loser then, jillian?

2. the groups: talking about health & fitness here and reporting my success/failure to the facebook group are also good motivators for me. yes, i wanted ice cream last night, but i knew i was weighing in this morning and the ice cream didn't sound good enough to blow that. and yes, we're having pizza tonight at the bowling alley, but i will limit my intake because i don't want to regain what i lost this week. because someone's going to hear about it. and talking with my people about it helps keep me focused.

3. stubbornness: i have no problem at all disliking certain parts of my life because they're outside of my control. but i can control my choices. and so i will. i will make healthy choices because it's something i do for myself. i get up & walk in the morning because i like that the first thing i do in the morning is for me. it's not for my boss or the credit card company or even my family & friends. it's for me. it gains me confidence. and if i can boost my own confidence, why wouldn't i?